You’re a weird one, Mr. Grinch
Let me just start with my favorite expression: Ugh.
Ugh to this whole mess, which wouldn’t be quite so bad if it weren’t just a mess to me. Maybe if I had a suffering counterpart, I wouldn’t feel quite as…ugh.
Did I mention I have no friends? Just your average sixten year old loner with nothing but a job and an exceptional talent for daydreaming. And a boyfriend, who might I add, is sleeping at the moment, thus leaving me alone in a state of mental distress. Not that it matters much, seeing as how he’s the one for whom I am going through distress for. It’s hard to talk to the person upsetting you about how said peron upsets you, the only result is elevated distress. Now it’s nothing life changing or earth shattering in the ways of revalations, but it’s important nontheless.
See I work at a Wendy’s and I enjoy it there. What I don’t enjoy is juggling work with school and Evan. Because Evan is the only person I particularly talk to and Evan is the only person I really ever spend time with. So o course I have come to expect a lot from him. As in he must simply be everything I need. He must be the best friend, the lover and fill all the roles I need. The roles that in most peoples lives, there are many people to fill. Unless you’re me and you come to depend upon one person. That can only e the biggest mistake one can make while in a relationship, I’ve preached that to many people. And I step back and realise I have done the one thing I warned people away from.
So of course now that one person is failing to fill the roles of many and I’m upset, and I have no idea what to do. I know it’s not fair, but the emotions keep roaring inside of me. I feel like I’m going to explode and I know that it’s not right but I can’t help but feel that way. I have absolutely no idea on how o go about fixing this before it becomes a real issue in our relationship….Ugh
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